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Real Regrets

Posted by Herb7734 6 years, 1 month ago to Philosophy
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When I was close to death with pneumonia, I reflected on those things that, over the years, I most regretted. Oddly enough, they were not momentous moments, but smaller, personal things, like certain events I failed to attend, compliments I should have given, but didn't and the following is an example of a biggie.Many years ago in my childhood I knew a kid whose name was Clifford, but everyone called him "Pinkie." I don't know why. Perhaps because of his slightly smaller stature, however when full grown he was of average height. In any case, zoom forward 20 years and I encounter him with his teen son in the locker room of our health club.Without a thought I shouted out "Hi, Pinkie." Whereupon Clifford's face turned red and his son assumed a quizzical look. In a flash I realized that the dad who was a terrific athlete and provider was also "Pinkie." As I walked away I heard, "Yeah, Pinkie, that was my nickname." The minor incident has returned to haunt me evermore. Don't ask me why, but let me caution you here in the Gulch. Be careful what you say and who you say it to. It may come back to haunt you some day and not for the sake of others but for your own sake. I would dearly like to go back to be able to correct every faux pas, everyy unattended event, and every inappropriate smartass remark. However, the past is as unrelenting as fate.


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  • Posted by $ Olduglycarl 6 years ago in reply to this comment.
    Among other things...When I first got my license, I re-landscaped every back road in my town until I got it right...
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  • Posted by 6 years ago in reply to this comment.
    Por 25n. The trouble I got into in high school makes him look angelic.But I was a long way from the worset.
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  • Posted by 6 years, 1 month ago in reply to this comment.
    I played trombone with Buddy Morrow's band.His band members never realized that he came from an Orthodox Jewish family. Real name Muni Zudekoff.
    I would now & then say a few words in Yiddish to him, the guys thought we had a special code, except for the other Jews.
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  • Posted by 6 years, 1 month ago in reply to this comment.
    Anyone under 12 has the excuse of a completely unformed brai, and cannot be held responsible for anything.
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  • Posted by 6 years, 1 month ago in reply to this comment.
    The problem with reality is that it is real.I doubt even quantum physics will allow the degree of time travel to correct your regrets.
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  • Posted by 6 years, 1 month ago in reply to this comment.
    I doubt if those regrets could be called altruistic. It's more a matter of "do no harm" which falls somewhere under the non-coercion mantra of objectevism. Might make a pretty good debate. Anything would be better than the childish stupidity of current events as put forth by the anti-American left.
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  • Posted by 6 years, 1 month ago in reply to this comment.
    She is fortunate that you're her dad. Thanks for some new insights. This is the Gulch's value for me.
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  • Posted by 6 years, 1 month ago in reply to this comment.
    Trust me, it's no different among my upbringing, Judais.. Those of us fortunate enough to escape from the sticky , cloying bonds of religion can , while regretting lost hours of youth, can at least rejoice in the knowledge that "Die gedunken sind frei." -- My thoughts are free. (An old German folk song.)
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  • Posted by 6 years, 1 month ago in reply to this comment.
    True, It's nobody's business but the Dino's. I just find seeing how what I believe to be true today is far more interesting than current events.
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  • Posted by $ Abaco 6 years, 1 month ago
    Yeah, you're a good man, Herb. Don't let it bother much. We all have regrets. I have one that I'd love to make right. I was 11 at the time. ….So, in the grand scheme I'm probably much better than most...haha...
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  • Posted by $ Olduglycarl 6 years, 1 month ago in reply to this comment.
    Forgiveness is a difficult concept for the Conscious Self to recon with.

    In some of my talks, relating to my first book and understandings since, I say:
    If the evolution of our mentality and behavior was expected to be so damned easy...there would have been no need for the act of nor the concept of...Profound Forgiveness.
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  • Posted by CircuitGuy 6 years, 1 month ago in reply to this comment.
    It might have made more sense for the names to be reversed.

    I saw The Final Frontier in the theater when I was 14. I thought it sucked, but I understand a little more about what Kirk was saying about refusing to be manipulated by a tour of all the times he turned left when he should have turned right. I thought it was about regrets, but I understand better about what Herb is saying about things that are not major regrets but little things you're really not proud of.

    It makes me think of a girlfriend I didn't treat that great at age 17. I talked to her when I was 27 and said I should have handled things differently. She said she unequivocally forgives teenage all peccadilloes, and countless things happened since, making it no big deal. That made me feel better. I better that's true for a lot of the peccadilloes Herb was thinking of... the people who were wronged might not think of it as that big of a deal. People are often hardest on themselves.
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  • Posted by CircuitGuy 6 years, 1 month ago in reply to this comment.
    "it is that pain that makes you who you are now."
    That was the one before it, The Final Frontier. "I need my pain."
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  • Posted by CircuitGuy 6 years, 1 month ago
    This is a good reminder. If you still have contact with those people, you could send them a note or see them, not about that but just saying you respect them.

    If you investigated, I wonder if many of those things would turn out a) not as bothersome as you thought or b) not really the thing that was bothering them in life.

    But I know you mean. I'm collecting these minor regrets too. I had a nice and dedicated PT employee who showed up clearly buzzed to work twice. Then I cut his hours, partly because of that but also because I had a client who stopped paying for unrelated reasons. The guy committed suicide a couple weeks later. I don't imagine that I alone had the power to save his life, but I still think about it.
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  • Posted by $ allosaur 6 years, 1 month ago in reply to this comment.
    At least you did not chose a space opera character who lived in another galaxy a long time ago.
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  • Posted by BCRinFremont 6 years, 1 month ago in reply to this comment.
    “...and there’s nothin I can do about it now.”. Willie is about all that survives of Waylon, Willie and the Boys....
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  • Posted by $ allosaur 6 years, 1 month ago in reply to this comment.
    With each passing birthday, me dino is becoming more and more aware of my mortality.
    And I know a lot of fellow baby boomers who are under the ground.
    One guy who stands out in my memory for being my exact same age died of a heart attack during the Ninetes.
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  • Posted by term2 6 years, 1 month ago
    history is history and shoulnt be changed or forgotten, but learned from.
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